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INTARWEB RESURRECTION

Wed, 29 Nov 2006 16:36:55 GMT

My internets are officially BACK. gasp. now to see if msn works....

oooh and...

Sat, 11 Nov 2006 20:24:13 GMT

... i think i know what to get frenz for christmas,

Computed!

Sat, 11 Nov 2006 20:16:25 GMT

SO..... yes.

a number of things have been going on. most people who know me also know i haven't been around a lot online lately. several reasons: lots of work, and a dead motherboard. yep. i'm getting a new compy. it will be shiny. it will be GRAND. the shiny future of ME.

jickel put it together for me, since i know crappers about computers. I dunno what half of the stuff he told me to get is, but jickel ensures me it'll be some fancy shit. since i don't really have money for a new computer, and a desperately need one in order to manage in school, mom finally caved and agreed to help me out a bit. i asked about it like... a month before the motherboard actually fried. then she said she couldn't afford to help me (which was obvious bs, since she bought a new dish washer, a new stove, and a trip to china by the time my compy died). not WANTING to help, okay, it *is* her money, but i don't appreciate getting lame excuses.

at least my hard drive was perfectly intact.

currently sitting at jickel's place, eating his compootar batteries. and watching him play sh4. the monsters in that game are kinda crappy and not-scary. the bit frenz spazzed about wasn't at all as bad as he said.

gah. i want to play more jade claw. DAMMMIT.

other things... yes. WARNING; FAMILY CRAP!

this concerns my goddaughter. yeah... i actually have one of those. mom has told me i shouldn't talk about this shit and that we should keep it in the family, but i don't really believe in hiding shit like this. the thing is....

one of my cousins had a kid at a young age. which would be perfectly allright if she knew how to take care of it.... but... ersh. maybe i should start at the beginning.

to beging with, she's deaf.b it's a handicap which makes life just that much trickier. when she was in her teens, her dad abandoned the family.... actually, he was just kinda gone one morning. after some crappiness my cousin somehow came to live with him through her teens. this... was more or less a distaster. he didn't care about her that much, at let her do whatever the hell she wanted.... imagine someone age 13-16 allowed to do exactly whatever.... yeah.
you got it.

i'm not really sure what happened next, but i know her dad moved to the US to start a new family.here, everything went effing crazy. i don't know exactly what happened, or how (again with people not telling me anything), but my cousin went on a lot of alcohol, a lot of drugs, a lot of sex, and then disappeared. poof. gone. she reapperared a few years later.

she was then witha guy... a nice guy. but he cheated on her at some point so she dumped him. fine. then she went into some relationship with an abusive guy.... who i think got her preggo. i thijnk it was him. nobody really know who, though. anyway. he was abusive, so she left him. GOOD CALL. she then went back to her nice, previous boyfriend.... who married him, and signed for fatherhood, eventhough he knew he wasn't the dad. or so i heard at the time.... i don't think we've solved the father thing yet. but wtf, she divorced himm four months later anyway.

the big problem here concerns the kid, since the only thing my cousin ever managed to complete was her pregnancy. parenthood- gnrrrn. some of her friends finally went so social services, who concluded the living conditions in their dwelling was not fit for human beings, and that the kid was close to autistic. he mom didn't really interact with her... so.... we had a silent 1.5-yrold who didn't react to sound or movement. but she was not autistic, and turned into mopre of a kid after a week with her aunt and grandmother.

needless to say, my cousin lost custody, but refused to acknowledge why. the kiddie then went to live with her aunt, that is, my other cousin, and has livet there for.... well.... about a year. she had daycare, lived close to her OWN cousin, and was taken care of by a number of people, whilst her mother refused to see her out of principle. she demanded to be alone with her child. not okay by social services. she did, however, ahev ful visitation rights and come by any time.

this kid has been torn up by the roots a number of time.

now to recent events... those who actually trouble me. i was told like.... yesterday, that social services had come, unanncounced, and removed the poor now 2,5 yearold, from her aunts and taken her back to her mother. they didn't say why. my cousin has not improved. and chances are i won't see my goddaughter again. during the time the kid's aunt had custody, my cousin fought for "her rights". she has insulted every family member who got involved and tried to help her. she never understood, that if her sister (kiddie's aunt) HADN'T taken care of her child... she would have been put in foster care with strangers.instead of with a person she knew and liked. my cousin is convinced that her her sister and her mother took her child from her.... and refused to understand hat those were terms from the social services.

i don't like kids much. but... yeesh.

is a right big mess.
god. wonder if anyone had timme to read this drivel.

omg post

Tue, 31 Oct 2006 20:20:24 GMT

oookkaay soooo..... ihaven't posted CRAPPERS in my journal in forever, since, well, i finmd it kinda pointless and it hasn't ever really caught my interest. besides, most days i am either too busy or too dull to post anything.

well.

maybe i should start.er.

please ignore earlier posts in my journal, as they are probably both old an retarded.

well... i'm at jickel's place and he's busy beating the hell out of some sh3 monsters, frenz is being tired and shaved shiny lemony fresh... and i'm.... typing. or something. making typos. with screams and growls and "unghs" and "ughs" in the background.

horrible school stuff'¨s up and i have to so schooly stuff most of my time... not to mention i've long since drowned in commissions och different kinds, all of which i'm lagging with. in some cases immensly.

omg wait... creepy sounds on sh3 O__o eep eep! use moon stone at DOOR. omg moar creepiness. freaky angles. omg eep.

ah. but yes. um. might post moar laters when i'm not busy busying with people. buahaha-

Lots and bunches of stuff

Wed, 28 Dec 2005 17:11:06 GMT

Well, first, to be honest, I'm in way over my head right now. A re-test thing, a huge bugger of an essay, several art commissions plus plush ones, party things and then on top of everything I'm trying to maintain some sort of social life >_o. The state of these are much muddled, and, sorry all peope who commissioned me, but i really have had no time whatsoever to work on either commish these last few days. There'll be yet another delay.

oh yeah. and then there's that gift art i was supposed to be doing... comics... and... uh... art trades. I should agree to less for my own sake.

Got a buttload of comics for christmas.... much like I wanted. some cerebus, hellsing, elf quest, gloom cookie, bone... and... probably summerts else that I forgot to list. at last i have at least *some* complete series now. And no, I have not managed to read it all yet. These'll take hours to get through... and usual, I'll be reading lots of it as toilet litterature.
This new year's, just as last year, will be spend in company of furres. yay and woot and the wonderous joy and stuff. How many of us that will be attending i'm not 100% sure of, but we'll be a few in any case. and we'll be watching movies with talking animals and stuff Xd yum. Tried to get frenz to buy Renart the fox for me, but i have no idea if he even remembered to. If he did, that's probably what we'll be watching for new year's.

Woa. there comes my belated ebay email. WOO. i can register and buy frenz soviet stufflies now.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEE.

fuckups and happies

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 22:29:19 GMT

Let's see if this'lll work today. It just might. Well... it's been the normal royal mess of fuckups and happies, unneccessary rude comments from my part and sometimes neccessary such. Ups and downs, goodies, badies, you know... life. As it usually is. Been trying to go out and do stuff with frenz, but something always does seem to fuck up somewhere along the way when we give it a try. Today we were supposed to see something at a place called Mondo, but their information... sucks. We couldn't even find what we were looking for. The problems actually started with me forgetting about and leaving my ID at home, which would have prevented us from going in the first place. So I had to convince my dad to drive to where I was to hand it over - and after that it fucked up eitherway. On top of that we actually left some friends (victorfox and jickel) to go there. And then it just goes kablammoes anyway. Sucks when that happens. Sending the people at mondo a wee message asking what the hell happened tomorrow probably- my brains just aren't functioning properly at this hour. although i honestly don't think it'd hurt to send them and incoherent message in this hour to emphasize the autistic nature of the information on their home page.

Planning on getting a nicely drawn chainroaker storyline done for SPX06 - looking forward to it already.

I gots me some chips and some chicken.

I do not trust birth control pills.

Tue, 16 Aug 2005 22:18:55 GMT

Miss teh frenz. who is still in le prague. teh suck. and now he might go to london without me too. the poo. and i don't really understand why you want to go to london that bad either.... apart from the excellent opportunity to meet some neat furres that we do want to meet and stuffies. Sure... it's kinda neat with lots of stores, but i've... i've seen it already. there are some really really neat stores that i would like to visit again, sure.... one store i never had the time to go into by camden for example. not going in there made me pissy but i didn't have many options.

poo poo poopy poo

anyways... had fun this saturday playing mutant. didn't ass up to badly this time and.... explode or something in that manner. or babble until i get mangled by something. been sketching on a picture of the characters we used, but i'm not really happy with it yet. would be much fun to play again. aaas for the scripty bit for it.... i DID note the similarity between one of the characters and one in the harry potter books, but didn't find it worth mentioning. turned out later that he was supposed to be a "main character".... i so did not get that. i though WE, the players, were the main characters and i didn't find him important at all in that context. i just though of that character annoying little fake hero prat who wasn't worth talking, or give a damn about. So I skipped that. Sortof a side event to me. I liked the lil adventure though... there was a challenge in it - not too simple but not too hard. I guess we had some luck as well concerning certain events.

poof. and i go

Knur

Tue, 16 Aug 2005 21:12:45 GMT

so this is my fancy-pants NEW livejournal... moved it. old one... being dominion_muffin. zurr. this is bettur. have to pimp it a wee bit. blam. hold on.